Spring 2024 Dream Journal
Semester 2
6 Jan, 2024
I am in Bah-stan. Or right outside the city in Wellesley Hills. It has a very hoity toity name. I took this journal out while I was waiting for I and her friend X to come scoop me but I don't want to look like a twit with a notebook out when they pull up so I'm going to stash it until a later date. It's very cold and I'm wearing a beige jacket with beige pants.
7 Jan, 2024
Good being here. My Paw Paw said it was a good day and he was right. Lots of snow, and Hadley and Mom and I got out in it! It was good cause it hasn't really been snowy for anyone yet this year. Really wintery and really nice!
I gave I my pen yesterday and so I am writing with this bone-shaped pen from South Shore Orthopedics. The phone number on the side has four 5s in a row so it looks like it would be a fake number in a TV show. It's a little hard to write with.
My mind is at ease. The bardo of travel has a way of making the present your focus and I appreciate the East Coast winter without (most of) the melancholy. And I still think about you, of course, but it's been better. You know.
I feel like I'm on solid, if cold, ground out here. It's still a little Christmassy.
12 Jan, 2024
I really wanted to write down my thoughts flying down the Amtrak to New York. Not that they were anything particularly genius, but the winter looked so nice stretching past me in the window, I thought maybe it would inspire something worthwhile about New England on paper. That was Monday and Tuesday. I really do not want to leave. But, going back to San Francisco is not a bad situation.
Brooklyn is sorta my small town. Brownstones line my mind. Lots of brownstones.
Lots of dead Christmas trees in the streets. A little rain when I got here, but no snow. There is a monsoon season now, I guess, because of climate change.
I'm glad I'm documenting a little more. Not like John Wilson, though.
9 Feb, 2024
Forgot Z's birthday. Still haven't talked.
10 Feb, 2024
I had a dream that was a little fucked up that I was ordering girls I sort of liked at the cafeteria but the kiosks were urinals.
11 Feb, 2024
Went back to sleep and had a dream I was filling in these holes with sand and dirt. It was sorta chill. I slept with my socks on and enjoyed it.
13 Feb, 2024
I had almost a pee dream where I was in the bath in the old New York apartment, and there was a figure in all black, lace underwear undressing and standing up to pee at the toilet next to the bath.
17 Feb, 2024
I can only remember the dream where I woke up in a room with A and D and they got mad when I said alcoholism is the only disease where you get to sit around all day and get drunk.
20 Feb, 2024
Long wild dream where it was my birthday and [illegible]
21 Feb, 2024
Dreams are so personal because they're experiences you can only have by yourself. And they don't exist until you write them down. I guess it's the same as with normal ideas.
22 Feb, 2024
I dreamed I was in this coffin, kissing D. Then I was spitting, which usually wakes me up with my face wet, but this time it was fine.
2 Mar, 2024
No matter how messed up of a person you are you can always pour 100% of your focus into your handwriting if you want to make it nice.
3 Mar, 2024
D and I . . . last night which was fun, but I hope it doesn't change the vibe right now which is good and chill and friends. But maybe with benefits.
14 Mar, 2024
A dream where I was just holding her, but it was like really love-ful, which is weird, especially cause we just talked about girls and had a platonic vibe. I'm in New York more than Seattle in my dreams lately.
21 Mar, 2024
The cats we're pet sitting had me and A up until fucking 2:30 meowing and meowing until I left to sleep in D's bed again. A was up another hour and then they woke him up again at 5. The cats are evil. I woke up two or three times from sounds, outside, loud as hell, and then once from sleep paralysis. These cats are ruining our lives. Fuck these cats.
22 Mar, 2024
I was at CCA, and some girl jumped out a window and died, and I covered my eyes before she hit the ground cause I didn't wanna see it. It was really brutal and I tried to go up to her because a couple other people were but I couldn't, I had to run away onto campus cause it was too much. Everyone was acting like it didn't happen or it was no big deal, which was freaking me out that there was this dead girl and it was business as usual here. I ran into this jazz band playing Billie Eilish covers and the girl was the keyboardist's daughter. Then I was picking at my face until it got bloody.
23 Mar, 2024
I had a dream I was just peeing nonstop, and I was like, "this is fucked up," but I didn't actually pee in D's bed, thank God.
30 Mar, 2024
I dreamed I was petting Clover, and she was back, and I was crying, but she looked a little different and I knew it kind of wasn't her. I can't believe it will have been a year soon. I love that cat so much. I was thinking about how she hasn't seen me with a beard. My baby.
5 Apr, 2024
A dream where I bought this overpriced ass pizza, then when I went to get the slice the guy was like "Yea, we don't hold onto pizzas," and I was crying all crazy. Then I took the gun from the guy robbing the store and shot him and stuff. There was more.
6 Apr, 2024
There was just an earthquake, apparently, but I dunno, I didn't feel it. Eclipse on Monday. A says it's the end times.
10 Apr, 2024
I was crying again and slept over at D's. I woke up and switched to her roommate's empty bed, then went back to D for an hour, then I woke up.
, 2024
It was all a dream...
Fall 2023 Dream Journal
Thoughts on A Glimpse of the Lake.